Day Four of the Un-HCG Experiment....

Somehow this post disappeared when Blogger went down! So, the basics were that I lost - 1.2lbs! That all of the losses have been during TOM :) Headaches have come and gone. Usually a period of morning hunger. Other than that no hunger.

Day three of my Un-HCG experiment...

Down .4 this morning. So that is a pound lost over the last 2 days eating fat and using lotions with the HCG still in my system. Interesting. HCG should be out of the system by today. I have been taking my glucose religiously in the morning and then for the 2 hours following my 2 meals. It is super stable and in fact it has never gone above 87 even in the first readings following my meals. I have been testing my urine for keytones. Every time I am at moderate or large. Most of the participants are only at a trace or small. I was hoping that would mean big losses, but who knows :) I had a headache and for the first two days, and finally don't today. I did not get the sugar withdrawl headache when I started HCG, and that surprised me given what I had been eating. I think the fruits gave me just enough to keep the headaches away, so once I took them out completely, I am guessing that is why the headaches. I have had some hunger at different times, but not bad. Mornings usually. No cravings or anything. Fat definitely tastes good :)

The How, What and Why's of HCG......

Hi guys! Sorry for the long hiatus. This last week has been an adventure.... in research that is :) For those of you who have been following my blog, you know that I am sort of a nutrition junkie. I always want to know the science of it all, and what is going on behind the scenes. Things need to make sense logically for me. Although "HCG" has been successful to me thus far many of the concepts just made no sense scientifically. But I liked the weight loss so I just ignored that :)

I was reading the HCG forums and was watching a "fight" back and forth while someone was trying to point out some issues they had with the science and why they felt it was wrong. Of course this peaked my attention. So I found their website and read it from top to bottom. For me this was the information I had been looking for. This is where all of the missing links finally made sense.

The website is: sugarfreegoodies.wordpress.com.

The website is a little difficult to navigate and find what you are looking for, but if you read HCG Diet Analysis part l,ll,lll, and lV you will have the basics and all of the science that surrounds it. Part lV can be found in the recent posts, but to find the first 3 parts you need to go to the archives for the last couple months. Then you can look around and find the threads of the participants that are testing out the solution theory of the websites author.

So after digesting all of this I have stopped the HCG as of yesterday. I am monitoring my blood glucose very carefully and being specific on which foods I am eating. I am going to get the required blood work done so I can really find out what is going on with me. I decided to get a scale because I wanted to see what if any effects this would have on weight loss or gain. This morning I lost .6 lbs and was able to use face and body lotion and eat 50gms of fat :) All while HCG is still in my system.

I am in no way discrediting any HCG followers. I think Simeon had parts of the picture, just not the whole picture. For me this makes sense. Finally. Take it or leave it. We all have to do what is right for us, and no matter what program we follow, I am glad we are in it together:)

I will post and let you know what I find out along the way :)

Day Six.... Happy to Meet New Friends!

It has been great to hear from all of my friends, plus so many new ones :) I am also glad that some of you are doing this right along with me. Be sure to keep me up to date on your progress.

No scale is so bizarre! I find I don't spend nearly the amount of time thinking about HCG. It is like I can forget about it during the day and just do what I need to get done. I don't lay in bed in the morning and wonder what the scale is going to say. I don't over analyze the previous days menu to death, wondering if there was a tad too much salt, or if something is affecting me because the loss is not as good as I had hoped for. Overall I am pretty relaxed. My energy so far is great. I am doing some exercise everyday, and that makes me happy because in the past I wanted to avoid it, in case it made me retain water, and I did not have a good loss. In general, it feels much more healthy and balanced :)

I will post what I ate, because I know people like to see what the diet is like when they are new to it.

Yesterday was:

Chicken, Romaine, Apple, Melba

Tilapia, Asparagus, Strawberries, Melba and Strawberry Lemonade

1 liter water, 1 liter yerba mate tea, 1 liter peppermint water

I am really missing my husband who is in Houston right now, but I am glad to be getting this over with while he is gone. So much easier without the temptation to go out with him :)

They Didn't Forget Me...... :)

I can't tell you how happy I was to see your responses. I thought for sure you had all written me off months ago :) Thank you so much for your kind words and for not kicking my butt for messing up. I think I have done that enough for you all :)

One thing I realized while spending 6 weeks in bed, was how bad I wanted my life back. Right before this started I was stressing so badly about my weight and I think it was one of the major causes of my issues. It was very humbling to come to the realization that nothing was worth what I was going thru. I don't care if I stayed the weight I am now, if it meant I could be me again and not be in pain. Why do women put themselves through absolute hell for a number??

Things are manageable now. I do my therapy everyday. I still feel it a little, and it gets worse if I am not vigilant. I know I need to keep my health and well being in the forefront now. I want to get some of this weight off, but I know I need to remain sane while doing it. I am actually really glad I don't have a scale. It takes away most of the mental aspect of things which is nice.

One interesting thing was that I thought I was so rock solid. I had conquered my emotional eating issues. I was in complete control. I loved the way I looked and loved my clothes.... All it took was the perfect storm of emotional and physical issues, combined with a little bit of cockiness on my part, and BAM! Right back to where I was. Wow. Lesson learned.

Emotional eating is EXACTLY like the alcoholic. Most recovering alcoholics simply can't drink anymore. No matter how long they have been sober, it comes right back if they let it. And sometimes it only takes just one drink, even after years of sobriety. I now know that I can't get lazy and convince myself that a little bit won't affect me, or I will make up for it next week, or I just need a little bit because things are so stressful right now, or use the holiday as an excuse for complete eating abandon :)

Sorry, this post is so long. Lots of emotions over the past 5 months. Feels weird not to be posting a number everyday, but happy not to be doing so :) I also notice that most of the usual suspects are not posting either!! So get to posting!! I miss you guys :)

What a Difference Five Months Makes.......

Where to begin???

Christmas was a nightmare and started gaining..... Tried to do HCG in Jan and was starving and miserable. Husband threw away my scale and said enough is enough. Quit after 10 days..... Gains continued.... Got sick and was bedridden for 6 weeks in EXTREME pain. Saw numerous doctors with no help. Took every medication possible: nothing. Ate for comfort and to ease the constant nausea. Gains soared.... Finally able to get out of bed, but devastated at how far I had fallen. Found out we might be moving to Houston, husband gone, and teenager pushing me to my limits.... gains out of control!!!

So, here I am today on day four of a new HCG round.

I have been all over the map emotionally. I have wanted to post, but was too embarrassed about the gains. So upset at myself for letting it get this far....

But then I remembered that this is where my friends are :) I have picked them up when they have gotten off track, and I know they will do the same.

I never replaced the scale my husband threw away. I did not like the control it had over me and my emotions. So I am doing this round with NO SCALE! Talk about freedom :) I know what to eat and not eat. I know what clothes I want to get into. So what is the purpose of determining my day based on what the scale says??

This will definitely be an adventure, and I am happy that I am back on track. I could keep beating myself up and self medicating with food, but it just isn't worth it. So here goes nothing.....

Okay, so I went a little crazy. I am pretty sure I had a mid-life crisis :) Who am I?? What am I supposed to do?? What am I going to do with the rest of my life?? I turn 39 next week....... need I say more? The diet went out the window and I have basically been a basket case :)

I have finally decided to put on the brakes and turn the ship back around! I started last round at 155.6 and I have been hanging around 154. I guess another round after the holiday will be in order. I have been trying to sort things out and decide what I want to do. So here is what I came up with.

#1- I am just going to try to maintain right now thru the end of the month, instead of stress myself out during the holiday and try to lose.

#2- I started back exercising this week. I forgot how much I love dance! I have to keep the body moving!

#3- I am going back to school. I have gone back and forth on this because I could not figure out which direction I wanted to take. I found the degree I want. It is Community Health Education. Once I have my bachelors, then I can get certified as a Community Health Education Specialist. From there, I have lots of options as to where I want to go.

#4- I will start HCG consulting for a chiropractic office that is adding HCG to their office. They have an excellent homeopathic HCG that can only be obtained by a doctor. It has HCG plus a lot of extras in it.

Combine those with all of the regular family duties and I should be very BUSY!! Just how I like it :)

So that is my life in a nutshell. I have missed chatting with you all. Let me know how you are doing! If anyone wants to get HCG, just let me know. The cost is $99 and includes an hour getting started class (or phone) with me! Happy Holidays!