Sunday, January 31, 2010

R2 LM D45....

+0.3 above LIW! At least that is going back down a little. After all of the magnesium and smooth move, things definitely started "moving" again ;)

Here is what I ate today:

bacon, egg, cheese ezekiel english muffin.
pear slices

snickerdoodle

Chili's mini corn tacos with rice and beans

snickerdoodle

fage with berries, coconut flakes and macadamias
muffin with cc

snickerdoodle

I can see from the above that I am going a little overboard on the almond flour stuff :) I need to reign that back in and just have a little at a time.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

R2 LM D44...

Same at +0.7 above LIW! When I woke up I was +1.7! But finally the smooth move kicked in and I was back to yesterdays weight :)

Here is what I ate today:

egg, cheese, bacon ezekiel english muffin
pear slices

almond flour snickerdoodle

dill tuna salad on almond flour sesame crackers
pear slices
snickerdoodle

trio bar

cobb salad, 1/2 apple crisp, diet coke

1/2 snickerdoodle

Not a lot going on today. Went to see "When in Rome'. Not quite as funny as I thought it was going to be, but still really good. Came home and ended up crying on my husbands shoulder. I am still fighting with feeling fat, and adjusting to the new body. It is so strange that my feelings change so drastically from day to day. One morning I will wake up and think they look great, and I feel thin and sexy. Then the next day I think they don't look good and I feel fat! What is going on?? They still feel a little foreign and hurt in places, but neither of those is very bad anymore. I am hoping this is all normal. I have wanted these for at least 15 years. It was not a sudden decision. Let's hope tomorrow is a better day....

Friday, January 29, 2010

R2 LM D43...

Up +0.7 above LIW! WTH?? Don't know what caused that. I did have 1/2 slice pizza late last night and am having bathroom issues after antibiotics :( That's the only thing I can think of....

I am going out to Honeyville Grain with a friend today, to buy our 25 lb bag of almond flour!! We are going to split it. So much cheaper that way.

Here is what I ate today:

bacon, egg, cheese, ezekiel english muffin - YUM!!
1/2 apple

1/2 apple, string cheese, kashi dark choc oatmeal cookie

curry chicken salad, muffin with cc, coco almond bark

1 1/2 almond flour snickerdoodles

double cheese burger in lettuce, 1/2 choc shake

Still no restroom. Drinking smooth move tonight. Went to pick up the almond flour and now they no longer carry the 25lb bag! You can only buy it in 5lb bags for 25.00. That is still cheaper than online and no shipping. I made the sesame crackers and the snickerdoodles. Both were great. Family even ate them.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

R2 LM D42...

Down at -0.3 lbs! I have a question for all of you. I have definitely noticed that since I have not been doing any excercise for a while, that I am "soft". Has anyone else noticed this? I need to start excercising more and get some muscle tone back :) I keep going back and forth about doing another round. Managing my weight is so easy now, I love my food, and I like my clothes. My husband thinks I don't need to do another round, but I know I definitely have another 10-12 lbs I could lose. I just don't want to risk not stabilizing again as well as I have now. I have read so many stories about people who have done multiple rounds and even though they stabilized great in the first rounds they really have a lot of trouble after rounds 4 and 5, with some having trouble after round 3. This would be round 3 for me. My friend who did the first 2 rounds with me, just finished her round 3, so I will be interested to see how she does. What do you think??

Here is what I ate today:

protein shake, ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

chicken, muffin with cc, odwalla super food drink

triobar

taco salad, pear

1/2 slice pizza, string cheese, mini coconut ice cream sandwich


Wednesday, January 27, 2010

R2 LM D41...

+0.1 above LIW! Nice :) Feeling good this morning after getting to sleep in a better position!

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
pear
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

club burger, diet coke, 1/2 oreo shake

triobar

chicken
apple
muffin with cream cheese

coconut almond bark
sf pecan delight

Feeling better every day. Husband is definitely loving the new additions :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

R2 LM D40...

+0.5 above LIW! That makes a little more sense. My new LIW is 154.3, but right now I would normally be about .4 below. So right now, that would make me like +0.9 above where I would normally be. I can see the swelling and have to at least have the equivalent of a cup of water in each breast. I am guessing even a little more. So being about a lb over should be right :)

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
left over fruit salad
ezekiel english muffin with cream cheese

scone, string cheese

chicken, 11 oz odwalla superfood drink

chicken, muffin with cream cheese, coco almond bark

fage with banana, berries, coconut flakes and macadamias
muffin with cc

mini coconut ice cream sandwich
pecan delight

Had my 1 week visit. I don't have to wear the ace bandage anymore. I have to start doing my massages. I still have to wear a bra night and day for 1 more week and then only during the day. Still can't go in the hot tub for a week or 2 which is killing me!! :) But they said it was looking good and 70% of the swelling should be gone by the 3 week mark. Most exciting is that I can now sleep on my side which should really help my back!

Monday, January 25, 2010

R2 LM D39...

+0.3 lbs above LIW! I knew that would come since I have swelling that I can see :) People asked me last week if it felt like I had foreign objects on me. I did not think so. Well, I take that back. This week they definitely feel foreign and the pain just enough to be annoying! I keep wanting to say "could I just take these out for like 15 minutes?" I just need a break to stretch out my back and feel like I can breath normally :) Overall, the pain was less than I had anticipated which is good. It is just a big change that takes a while to get to the point they feel normal, look normal, and you feel normal. I do feel a little bit bigger in clothes, but my husband says this is not the case. And it is nice for clothes to actually fit on top now :) I have my one week check up tomorrow.

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar, 1/2 apple, ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

1/2 apple, scone, string cheese

double cheeseburger, diet coke, grapes

1 sf coconut candy

almond flour fried chicken- YUM!
chopped salad
fruit salad tossed with yogurt, cinnamon, and coconut flakes

1 sf candy

I am really loving the almond flour recipes!! I thought that I had just not been feeling well after surgery and having nausea. But I figured it out yesterday that it is the ibuprofen that is making me sick. I will have to talk to the dr today about that. I have my one week post op today. I keep feeling "fat" and swear that I am gaining weight, but my clothes fit the same. I am sure it is just the mental thing of having something on top where I usually have nothing, so I see it as mass. I did try on a regular bra for a few minutes with some clothes and that helps tremendously. The bra you wear after surgery is so not attractive and makes things look horrible in clothes. And once they are softer and move normally that will make a big difference as well ;)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

R2 LM D38...

Down -2.6 with the steak day! My new LIW is 154.3 with the 2.5 added for the implants. This morning I was 154.0! I know that will go up a little since it always drops with the steak day below LIW and then comes back up. But that is pretty good since I know there is swelling at this point! :)

That being said I am definitely a little emotional this week. I know it's because I have been cooped up and had no life :) My back is killing me from only being able to sit and sleep in certain positions. I am not very patient and want the girls to look less swollen and more round and dropped. I guess it is starting to wear on me a little and just want life to feel back to normal :)

Here is what I ate today:

fage with berries, banana, coconut flakes and macadamias
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

Chilis: mini tacos, with black beans, diet coke, 1/4 molten :)

2 almond flour choc chip scones- YUM!

protein shake

I tried my first almond flour recipe. Chocolate Chip Scones. They are awesome. I really like the taste of the almond flour, but it is very filling! Can't wait to try some other recipes.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

R2 LM D37...

Up +4.8 lbs! I know I said I was not going to weigh for a few weeks, but I could not help myself :) I weighed yesterday and was up +5.6 lbs. Not too bad for a few days out of surgery, and TOM arrived :) The implants weigh 2.5 lbs and there is swelling right now. I always gain 3 lbs the day TOM arrives so this is right where I would have assumed I would be if not a bit higher for the swelling. I was almost down a pound from yesterday so that was nice. I am doing a steak day today and hoping to take off a few more pounds. My LIW is 151.8 so if I add the 2.5 for the implants my new LIW should be 154.3 with no swelling. I usually am under LIW though, so if I can stick pretty close to that with a little swelling I will be happy :)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

First Pics.... no socks this time :)



Here is a pic today. Felt so nice to have a shower :) I am going to go to lunch with my hubby who has been so good to me thru all of this. I will try to take some better ones as the week goes on. I can't believe that is me :)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

My First Peek....

I am not going to lie, last night was pretty tough :) So much pressure and pain. But it seems to get better and better little by little. I went back to the doctor today and they took off the bandages, so I saw them for the first time. I was prepared for them to be huge, swollen, oddly shaped and generally unattractive. But I actually really loved them! They looked really good even with the swelling. I can't believe I was so stressed out about the size. My first thought when I looked at them was, I hope they don't get too much smaller when the swelling goes down!! Can you believe that! LOL! I am so happy and can't wait to see them when they drop into place and lose the higher swelling. I did not like seeing the swelling in my belly though. It is normal, and the nurse said that would go a way soon. I can shower tomorrow and will hopefully be off the pain meds and onto motrin by saturday. It has not been too bad. I have only had to take one Lortab every 4-6 hours so far. What a crazy adventure! Could not have survived without all your support :)

Monday, January 18, 2010

My Best Size Estimation....

Okay, so I was so nervous I stuffed my bra with socks until it was the size I remembered at the Dr.'s office, took pictures, and then sent them to my family to see if they called me freaking out saying "what are you doing????" But they all said what are you freaking out about, it looks great, and fits your body shape. You can see the comparison to the picture at the top of the blog on the right. Also, what little is there in the purple shirt, is "bra magic" :) Wheeew! I feel alot better now :) Of course, they will look much larger for the first little while :) Here is my best estimation...

R2 LM D32...

Up at +0.6 above LIW! I did have the cheesecake at lunch, but I don't think that was the cause. When I had it last week I had it at dinner with other cheats and did not gain anything. My guess is that TOM is supposed to arrive on Friday. When I look at the weigh ins for last month this is the day I was exactly +0.6 and it stayed above until TOM arrived. Tomorrow will be my last weigh in for a week or two. Don't want to stress myself out when there is so much swelling. I will just do a steak day on the day TOM arrives. Those are the only steak days I have ever had to do and the charts always show about a 2.8 gain the day TOM starts. Then I do the steak day and I go back below LIW the next day. This is probably one of the hardest parts of getting this surgery is accepting that my weight will be higher. The weight of the 2 implants is between 2.5 to 3.0 lbs. I will just have to add that to my LIW and go from there once the swelling is down. The hard part is the swelling can hang around for up to 3 months, but most should be gone in the first 3-4 weeks. Can't believe tomorrow is the big day......

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
blueberries and cherries
ezekiel toast with butter and honey

cheeseburger, diet coke, and a kashi dark chocolate oatmeal "cookie"

string cheese, muffin with cc, sf pecan delight

egg salad in lettuce leaves, apple and orange slices

1/2 cup haggen daaz five ice cream, 1 square dark chocolate

TOMORROW IS ALMOST HERE.......... :) I hope I can sleep ;)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

R2 LM D31....

Right at LIW! Thought I would be over today with the oreo shake last night, but all is good :)

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
ezekiel toast with butter and honey
cherries and blueberries

string cheese, coconut almond bark

double cheese burger, 1/2 slice red velvet cheesecake :)

triobar

fage with berries and coconut flakes
muffin with cream cheese

sf pecan delight, 1 sm piece dark chocolate

Went and picked up a few extra pillows to help me sleep upright. Got a little nervous again....

Saturday, January 16, 2010

R2 LM D30...

-0.6 under LIW! Well now I have 3 days to get the housework done, shopping done, and be prepared for Tuesday! I picked up the almond flour cookbook from Barnes and Noble, and ordered my almond flour. I am excited to try some new stuff in the coming weeks!

Here is what I ate today:

organic pumpkin flax granola cereal in coconut milk
scrambled eggs with cheddar

flax ball, sf pecan delight

string cheese, muffin with cream cheese, flax ball, cherries

red robin club burger in lettuce, cantalope, and 1/2 oreo shake :)

coconut almond bark

I went crazy and had actual cereal for the first time since august! It was pretty good. Still anything out of a box tastes different than real food. It was my older sons 17th bday so we went to dinner and to the auto show. Good times :)


Friday, January 15, 2010

R2 LM D29...

-0.2 under LIW! Going to call the office and ask for one last try on.....

Here is what I ate today:

protein shake
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

flax ball

hamburger (no bun), with lettuce and tomato, sliced apple

string cheese, cherries, muffin with cc, flax ball

chicken and veggies, fage with cinnamon and coconut flakes

mini coconut ice cream sandwich (agave sweetened)

Today I went back to the Dr. one last time. I decided to stick with what I chose. I should end up a full C or a small D. Sounds perfect! :)

Thursday, January 14, 2010

R2 LM D28....

Back to -0.8 under LIW! Today is pre-op day :) I need to make my final list of questions and verify my final sizing preference. Won't be long now.....

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey
blueberries and cherries

flax ball

fage with berries, pumpkin flax cereal, coconut flakes, and macadamias
muffin with cream cheese

trio bar

cauliflower rice
chicken, zucchini, squash, and carrots in coconut oil and montreal
apple slices, cherries

1 sf pecan delight

Well I was so excited before my appt, but we went up a size and now I am freaking out. I think I may change it back. I am going to call the office back and ask for one more chance to try things on. The strange thing is that in a tank top I loved them, and you would think they look bigger in that. But when I put on my regular shirt it suddenly felt huge. I am so confused.... :(

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

R2 LM D27....

-0.2 under LIW! Still good :) I had the weirdest dreams last night. I dreamed that I was engaged to Tim McGraw and we were getting married but he was leaving on tour. For some reason he had a 2 bd shack for a house that I was supposed to live in with his mother until he got back! And what do you know she sometimes performed breast augmentations in her spare time. So she has these huge water filled bags that I am lying on while she does the fitting. Also bizarre, George Clooney was her assistant. She wanted to have it done as a surprise for Tim when he got home. Luckily I then woke up!!! WTH???

Here is what I ate today:

protein shake
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

trio bar

double cheeseburger, diet coke

string cheese, flax ball

hamburger stuff over lettuce with avacado and bit of ranch
cherries, blueberries, and orange slices

coconut almond bark, muffin with cc

1 sf pecan delight

Tomorrow is pre-op! Getting excited :)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

R2 LM D26...

-0.8 under LIW! I am tired this morning and would like to go take a nap now.... :)

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheese
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey
blueberries and orange slices

string cheese
flaxball

rotisserie chicken
cherries and orange slices
muffin with cream cheese

flax ball
almond bark

hamburger with tomatoes and cc over cabbage
zucchini and yellow squash sauteed in coconut oil and montreal
mini coconut ice cream sandwich

1 sf peanut butter cup

Off to a late meeting. Boring day. Just cleaning and that was it :(

Monday, January 11, 2010

R2 LM D25...

Same as yesterday, -1.0 under LIW! I am so happy to see that since we went to the cheesecake factory yesterday :) I keep thinking my scale is wrong, so I weigh my self several times and grab the stool from my bathroom and weigh with that and without :) I will be having my final consult today, and if that goes well and I like him, then I will be in surgery in one week!! Can't wait!

Here is what I ate today:

protein shake
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

string cheese, flax ball

chicken stir-fry with zucchini, yellow squash and cabbage. YUM! Cooked it in coconut oil and montreal seasoning.

muffin with cream cheese

double cheese burger
mini coconut ice cream sandwich

Had my last consult today. ABSOLUTELY loved the surgeon!! Definitely the one I am going with! He is amazing. So it is pre-op Thursday and surgery on Tuesday :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

R2 LM D24....

Down -1.0 under LIW! Looks like the ovulation water retention is gone :)

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
blueberries
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

string cheese
coconut almond bark

Cheesecake Factory:
shared corn tamale appetizer
cobb salad
shared red velvet cheesecake - OMG!

fage with berries, coconut flakes, and macadamias
muffin with cream cheese

Well since I had to work yesterday we got the family together for dinner and a movie for my sons bday. Cheesecake factory was awesome. I did not have any bread because I knew I wanted a little of the corn tamales. Cobb was good, but the red velvet cheesecake was to die for. I hope I won't have to pay too much for that, but I did not go overboard :) We saw the movie The imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus. Let's just say I wish I had those 2 hours of my life back :) Totally bizarre and I could not wait for it to end. Oh well, you win some you lose some.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

R2 LM D23...

Still going down at +0.4 above LIW! This morning the neck is still driving me nuts. I have an appt with the chiropractor to see if she can get me any relief. I made a bunch of dark choc chip banana muffins, some chocolate coconut covered almond butter flax balls, and of course coconut almond bark. Tomorrow I need to make some spicy flax crackers and some onion bread. These should help give me some variation. Also have to go shopping cuz the cupboards are bare :)

Here is what I ate today:

1/2 slice pizza
eggs with cheddar
1/2 pear
muffin with cream cheese

2 string cheese
apple
macaroon
mini coconut ice cream sandwich- YUM!

chicken
flax ball

chicken
cherries
sliced zucchini with ranch
muffin with cream cheese

almond bark

Long day. Neck is killing me. I hope I can sleep tonight..... ;(

Friday, January 8, 2010

R2 LM D22...

Better, at +0.8 over LIW! This is exactly where I was last month at ovulation. Have to work at the candy store today. Now that the holidays are over it is pretty quiet :) My youngest is turning 11 tomorrow, so I gotta come up with some ideas. Nothing like planning at the last minute :)

Here is what I ate today:

scrambled eggs w/cheddar
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

double cheeseburger, diet coke

almonds, string cheese, pear

fage with berries, coconut flakes, and macadamias
1 oz cheddar

1/2 slice pizza, 12 dark choc peppermint m&m's

My neck is killing me today. I can barely move it. I am so bummed. This used to happen all the time, but it has been quite a while since the last episode :( And to top it off I can't take any pain meds besides tylenol for 2 weeks before the surgery. They did say I could take my muscle relaxer, but without the pain med it only does so much.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

R2 LM D21....

I had to update with this picture :) I finally was able to get my hair cut today and my hairdresser said "Let's give you some big sexy curls!" I got curls alright. Pretty sure that this was the standard haircut on Charlie's Angels! LOL!

Up +1.6! WTH?? Okay that is just weird. I was gone all day and ate very good. Nothing inappropriate. In fact I thought I would be even lower today. I did not get in all of my water yesterday due to being gone all day, and my neck was acting up so I did not get any sleep! Those are the only 2 things I can think of. I just reviewed my monthly cycle and I am on day 13. Which is the exact day last month that I had a big jump due to ovulation. Then it bounced around above LIW for about 6 days and then went back under. It did not jump 1.6 above, but it did go just about a pound above. Seems to be the emerging trend: 2 weeks of the month are below LIW and 2 weeks (TOM, OVULATION) spent above. Crazy! :)

Here is what I ate today:

fage with berries, coconut flakes, and macadamias
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

cafe rio salad with chicken and beef and black beans. No tortilla, and no chips :)

string cheese, almonds, pecan delight

tuna in lettuce leaves, pear, left over cauliflower mashed potatoes

fage with coconut flakes, cocoa, and dark choc chips!

Hope the scale goes back down tomorrow. I hate it when it moves with no obvious reason. But every time it has, it has always been something to do with my cycle. I had not seen my stylist since before I did the HCG and he did a double take. Gotta love that :)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

R2 LM D20....

Back to -0.4 under LIW! Non fruit carbs at dinner seem to cause a gain for me, but not above the 2# mark. So nice to see that planned eating the next day takes care of it right away :) I have 2 surgery consults today. Excited to "try on" some sizes and see the possibilities!

Here is what I ate today:

eggs with cheddar
ezekiel english muffin with butter and honey

cheeseburger, diet coke

string cheese, apple, almonds

chicken, cauliflower mashed potatoes, salad with ranch

bit of trail mix, 1 sf candy

After meeting with the docs I am more confused than ever??? So many decisions, and how do you know how to pick?? I actually liked both docs and found a size I think I like. It's just how do you know which doc is the best artist and will give you the best end result?? One more consult on Monday, and then I must decide :)